Oh, how I long for you. To feel your warmth and your comfort again would be true bliss. But such hopes and wishes are only those, for I know our time together has come to an end. And yet, though it may be true, I find it simply unbearable to part ways with you, and I believe it impossible to rid from my mind the memories that haunt me daily, the memories of you my love. Do you recall that evening, where we spent 14 hours under the covers, without a care in the world? Or the night we spent in the airport terminal, not minding that everyone was watching? We wanted them to see, to know what true love is. What I don’t understand my love, and I can only pray by writing you in hopes I will get some answer in return, is why now you have chosen to leave me? For nearly twenty-two years, you have been a part of my life, a part of my soul. You’ve been there when I needed you most, when only you could save me from my greatest fears and downfalls. I’ve shared with you, thoughts and secrets that no person in my life will ever know. And yet, when I need you most, twelve days before Creative Critique, you choose to elude me. I fear, without you, I’m destined to fail. However, I can’t help but wonder that perhaps, you are testing me. You need to see if I can handle these challenges on my own, to prove my love to you. And in doing so, you will return to me my love. If I conquer all that I set out to do in these final days, you shall be there with open arms at the finish line. It is with this thought that I move forward. I pray every night, that I may see you again, for I must have you again. I simply cannot live without you, my Dearest Sleep. I look forward to the end of these twelve days, not because there is any certainty, but because there is faith, that I will be with my Dearest Sleep once more.
Always, and forever thinking of you,